I'm feeling philosophical, which happens sometimes, usually when I am alone. Unfortunately, for all of my lovely readers, there will be lots to read, but I'll include pictures. =)
I did not sleep well last night so I just got up "early" (8am really isn't that early for some people) b/c I just gave up on a good nights sleep. I know why I wasn't sleeping well and it is b/c of something that happened yesterday. Two good friends of ours just had a little baby girl. Don't get me wrong, I'm very happy for them. She's absolutely an adorable 8lb. baby and I look forward to seeing her again. It's just that the event reminded me of how I'm not where I want to be in life. Right now, I want a teaching job and I want to try having kids. Ideally, I want to be pregnant by the time I'm 30. Right now, we don't have the money for it. Now before everyone starts saying, "You'll never have the money for kids!" or "There's never a right time to have kids!" I don't exactly agree. Yes, kids cost lots of money and it will never feel exactly like the right time but there are better times than others. Right now, we just bought a house so we are paying a good amount of money towards bills every month and we have some spending money but not much. We are just barely comfortable with what we have now b/c only one of us makes a decent living. It's stressful enough w/o kids.
Anyway, the whole point for writing this story is that I want to share some ways that I have learned to make myself feel better.
1. Open the windows, or at least the blinds/curtains, and let some light in and a fresh breeze.
2. Eat something
3. Listen to some music
4. Sit outside and soak up the sounds of nature. Enjoy the breeze that runs through your hair. Enjoy the sites of birds bouncing from branch to branch.
5. Read an inspirational quote, or blog or YouTube video of someone you find inspiring. If you don't know any quotes, keep saying to yourself, "Just keep swimming, just keep swimming." :)
6. Remind yourself that if you don't keep trying, you DEFINITELY won't accomplish what you want.
7. Just do it! Another words, if you have something you should be doing, just start it without dwelling on it and before you know it, you won't want to stop what you are doing.
8. Meditate
I hope this helps. I shall leave you with an adorable picture of a baby that is wearing a hat I knitted for her and a picture of a butterfly I just recently took. Thank you for following!
Edit: When I say "Eat something", I mean that you may be in a sad mood b/c you are hungry. Eating something healthy, of course, is best.
Edit: When I say "Eat something", I mean that you may be in a sad mood b/c you are hungry. Eating something healthy, of course, is best.
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ReplyDeleteCaroline, I needed to talk to my son and he only answers me thru facebook, and your blog was on the top of my page, it was meant for me to see.....I can relate.
ReplyDeleteMaybe you should take some of your own advise...#7...Just do it. If you really want to have a child to love...then have a child. There will never be a perfect time for anything, that is not how it works for those of us who are not wealthy. The happiness you feel from the hug of a child, is worth more than gold. Struggling is a part of life and for people like us, it helps us to appreciate all the little things like your beautiful flowers and butterflies. You are blessed, you say it yourself, you just feel it in different ways at different times. Remember - the glass is ALWAYS half full. Sheri